Each dicision I made in whole my life

I always choose my way by myself.
I can make all decision.
In fact, I made all decision only by my thought up to now.
However, why do I regret my decision I've already made ?
What is a cause bothering me ?
It's me.
The problem exists in my heart.
I'm suffering my daily life in which I decided what to do.
It's too ridiculous that I make a cause to make me worried by myself.
If I hope to be free, I should do so because I can arrange whole my life.
Why don't I do that?
Why?
Why do I continue to feel depressed even though I have a free decision?
Do I like to have a negative mind ?
Am I a foolish girl?
Those who succeed in their life will make a new decision so as to go forward to their happy life when they run up against an unforeseen difficulty.
They know what to do next in order to spend more worthwhile time.
They never remain the same place.
They never look down.
They make their own way with great confidence.
I know what to do but I don't do that.
Now, what decision do I make ?

Everyone makes a decision everyday unconsciously.
A big change is the accumulation of daily small decision.