What's wrong with me?

I've been feeling strange since I came back to Japan. I felt alone even though my boy friend took care of me. There is no comfortable place to be as I am. I'm so exhausted that I'm about to loose my motivation. I know there are many people who dislike me or don't want to agree with me. However, simultaneously there are as many people who like me and want to share time as those who don't match me. I'm trying to have things fun although they seem to make me feel bad if I look at just the surface because I believe that I can get things done, having fun if I can see the things through a variety of my angles without any biased filter of my mind.

Now I have to manage myself to keep my motivation high even though I'm actually in a hard time because of the unreasonable reason from the school work.

I think I'm doing well as I tried to accept everything happening to me very positively. For instance, when I come accross a hardship that my professor reject me and close his mind while I try to show my respect as much as possible, I try to see the thing as this experience will help me to have my room of my heart bigger and lead me to my brighter future.

You know it's still difficult to let bad things go without illitation even though you try to accept them without judgement. That's why I'm frustrated for my current situation.

I believe that I'm going to the right way to get my great happiness.