Don't cry for a moon.

Since the spring semester started, I might have been crying for a moon.

Dissatisfaction...
For what?
I don't know what is the cause of my negative feeling, dissatisfaction.
Feeling dissatisfied doesn't create happiness.
I'm not lost in a maze in my way to live.

I found what I wanted to do on the future.
Finally I found my dream.
Honestly, I lost my way to go in the future after I enrolled in the university because my dream was to enroll in a high-level university since I was the six grade in the elementary school.

I might have been silly because I didn't think about a wider prospect in the future.
My aim has stopped at the point of passing the entrance exam for the university though actually I failed the exam.
I should have had a bigger dream in my entire life.
Since I enrolled in the university, I have experiences a variety of things: meeting a wide range of people regardless their age, background and race, doing a variety of part-time jobs, studying hard, going to a make-up school, working as a make-up artist, and getting a disease.
Through these experiences, I noticed that the name-brand is not important in my life.
A more valuable thing is what I experience, not the name of universities and companies.

What gives me happiness is to be involved in the beauty world.
I want to go to a beauty school again and get a license for total beauty including hair-cut skill and cosmetic skill. I want to get a still in N.Y or in San Francisco after I earn enough money to go to USA.
I want to be in the beauty world.
Many people may say what's the purpose of the graduation of the university, Why I studied hard to go to a good university while bearing spending with my friends, and why I don't take advantage of my career.

I have been thinking about what is the most suitable job for me but I couldn't find a job which matches me within the field of my career in the university.

I want to work as a make-up artist.
I know I need to get more practical skills.

I'm not sure whether or not this dream is a right decision for me.