It was incredible !!
SO AWESOME :)
I will become a big fun of skydiving.
2010年11月22日月曜日
2010年11月21日日曜日
Look around myself carefully
What I've been careful in mind recently is looking around carefully every nook and cranny.
When I go back to my dorm late at night after studying in the library, I try to look up and find a bunch of stars in the sky which we can't see in cities like Tokyo. I can see a huge number of beautiful stars in the place where there is no artificial light. It is awesome.
Especially, today, I was able to see such a beautiful full moon.
The things I noticed, walking around my dorm were....
1. A bunch of stars
2. A full moon
3.A sound of wind
4. A sound of car
5. leaves falling down from the tree
6. A cold wind
It is interesting for me that we can use a different sensor once we try to focus on a different stuff from the thing we are conscious of in our daily time.
I can't notice silence in nature when I'm in a hurry and my head is filled with complicated thought.
Change the thing which are bothering you.
Don't stay in the same place especially when you feel bad.
I'm not the person to easily move to another place, feeling bad. Rather, I prefer to lie down on my bed. However, staying in my bed for a long time doesn't change my feeling much because It is difficult to stop thinking about my troublesome without doing a thing.
Sometimes sleeping makes me better, whereas sometimes it works me worse.
Unfortunately, even though I try to do another thing not to think about my troublesome, sometimes the situation doesn't change.
Looking back for these couple of weeks, my effort didn't work well for my mind.
Walking, swimming, cooking, studying, shopping, talking, eating, watching TV, singing, sleeping, and reading....
I'm doing a lot of things only in a day. On the other hand, my feeling easily continues to stay in my mind for whole a day.
We can't see what exists in our minds but we can feel our minds have a strong power like we can't control logically and rationally.
When I go back to my dorm late at night after studying in the library, I try to look up and find a bunch of stars in the sky which we can't see in cities like Tokyo. I can see a huge number of beautiful stars in the place where there is no artificial light. It is awesome.
Especially, today, I was able to see such a beautiful full moon.
The things I noticed, walking around my dorm were....
1. A bunch of stars
2. A full moon
3.A sound of wind
4. A sound of car
5. leaves falling down from the tree
6. A cold wind
It is interesting for me that we can use a different sensor once we try to focus on a different stuff from the thing we are conscious of in our daily time.
I can't notice silence in nature when I'm in a hurry and my head is filled with complicated thought.
Change the thing which are bothering you.
Don't stay in the same place especially when you feel bad.
I'm not the person to easily move to another place, feeling bad. Rather, I prefer to lie down on my bed. However, staying in my bed for a long time doesn't change my feeling much because It is difficult to stop thinking about my troublesome without doing a thing.
Sometimes sleeping makes me better, whereas sometimes it works me worse.
Unfortunately, even though I try to do another thing not to think about my troublesome, sometimes the situation doesn't change.
Looking back for these couple of weeks, my effort didn't work well for my mind.
Walking, swimming, cooking, studying, shopping, talking, eating, watching TV, singing, sleeping, and reading....
I'm doing a lot of things only in a day. On the other hand, my feeling easily continues to stay in my mind for whole a day.
We can't see what exists in our minds but we can feel our minds have a strong power like we can't control logically and rationally.
2010年11月17日水曜日
2010年11月16日火曜日
Happiness
Almost three months passed since I came to N.Y.
Still I'm confused about my way to go.
What did I do in the past?
What do I want to do in the present?
What do I want to do in the future?
I think that what is the most important to me is what to do in the moment, thus, what to feel in the moment.
I notice that worrying about what doesn't happen now is meaningless as I get anxiety when I think about my future.
Nobody knows their future, but everybody enjoys their just moment, feeling happy with a big smile unconsciously.
However, once they think about their ambiguous thing, their minds tend to be unstable, sensitive and closed.
Speaking honestly, I really want to know what will happen in my future.
I wish to be sure about what I will do in the future.
I want to get my definite promise in my future if it is possible.
Nobody proves that what will be going on in their future.
The only thing we all can do is to believe ourselves.
Believe myself.
How can I believe myself?
Enjoy the moment.
Feel happy in each moment.
How can I enjoy each moment without thinking about my unstable future?
Just imagine only what I really want to do just now.
People say this idea seems to be optimistic.
I agree with their opinions somehow but even if it is so, I would like to see only my happiness in my mind's eye.
Those who can't enjoy their moment will never get their brilliant futures they are pursuing, expecting and hoping.
Feeling just in the moment affects feeling in the next moment.
The accumulation of feeling in each moment makes the basis of our minds and even our possibilities in the future.
Those who enjoy their moment are more likely to get success easily because their motivation they are feeling in the moment creates higher motivation in the next moment.
Enjoy the moment.
Do the thing drastically without looking back.
Because...
I 'm not alone.
Even if I make a mistake, there is the person to help me with his kind mind.
Even if I feel down because of my unexpected behavior, there are many people to support me.
So the only thing to do is just enjoying my moment.
Still I'm confused about my way to go.
What did I do in the past?
What do I want to do in the present?
What do I want to do in the future?
I think that what is the most important to me is what to do in the moment, thus, what to feel in the moment.
I notice that worrying about what doesn't happen now is meaningless as I get anxiety when I think about my future.
Nobody knows their future, but everybody enjoys their just moment, feeling happy with a big smile unconsciously.
However, once they think about their ambiguous thing, their minds tend to be unstable, sensitive and closed.
Speaking honestly, I really want to know what will happen in my future.
I wish to be sure about what I will do in the future.
I want to get my definite promise in my future if it is possible.
Nobody proves that what will be going on in their future.
The only thing we all can do is to believe ourselves.
Believe myself.
How can I believe myself?
Enjoy the moment.
Feel happy in each moment.
How can I enjoy each moment without thinking about my unstable future?
Just imagine only what I really want to do just now.
People say this idea seems to be optimistic.
I agree with their opinions somehow but even if it is so, I would like to see only my happiness in my mind's eye.
Those who can't enjoy their moment will never get their brilliant futures they are pursuing, expecting and hoping.
Feeling just in the moment affects feeling in the next moment.
The accumulation of feeling in each moment makes the basis of our minds and even our possibilities in the future.
Those who enjoy their moment are more likely to get success easily because their motivation they are feeling in the moment creates higher motivation in the next moment.
Enjoy the moment.
Do the thing drastically without looking back.
Because...
I 'm not alone.
Even if I make a mistake, there is the person to help me with his kind mind.
Even if I feel down because of my unexpected behavior, there are many people to support me.
So the only thing to do is just enjoying my moment.
2010年11月8日月曜日
Be patient
To be patient.
This is my aim for November.
Looking back to my high school's life, I had my great patience in my mind.
Even when I came across some hardships, I was able to manage myself and to overcome them by myself.
However, recently, I couldn't do the same thing as I did when I was young.
I think that I take care too much for very small particles which are likely not to be valuable to think.
I don't know the reason why there are lots of triggers to make me uneasy around my inner heart.
I know what to do to avoid these situations because the solution is simple.
Just not considering them.
Just ignoring them and taking them away from my mind.
It's easy.
It's very simple.
But I can't.
But I'm not the person to remain the same place even though I can't do that.
So the thing I have to do is to create a new idea to have myself free.
Be patient.
Bear the situation.
What is the best way in order to keep myself great patient with as little stress as possible?
I want to find the clue through this month.
This is my aim for November.
Looking back to my high school's life, I had my great patience in my mind.
Even when I came across some hardships, I was able to manage myself and to overcome them by myself.
However, recently, I couldn't do the same thing as I did when I was young.
I think that I take care too much for very small particles which are likely not to be valuable to think.
I don't know the reason why there are lots of triggers to make me uneasy around my inner heart.
I know what to do to avoid these situations because the solution is simple.
Just not considering them.
Just ignoring them and taking them away from my mind.
It's easy.
It's very simple.
But I can't.
But I'm not the person to remain the same place even though I can't do that.
So the thing I have to do is to create a new idea to have myself free.
Be patient.
Bear the situation.
What is the best way in order to keep myself great patient with as little stress as possible?
I want to find the clue through this month.
2010年11月7日日曜日
Christmas is coming soon :)
Here is the mall called Smith Heaven Mall near my apartment.
There are a lot of pretty decoration for Chiristmas.
I spend one hour just chooesing Christmas cards because they had a variety of pretty cards.
2010年11月3日水曜日
November came...
More than two months passed since I came to N.Y.
In October, it was a terrible month for me as I had no time to sleep well actually because I had to prepare for my job hunting in Boston. I was so nervous even though I made a great effort to keep myself calm but I wasn't able to do that in fact because of the huge stress beyond my imagination.
It was a funny thing that I couldn't come up with the appropriate word to write down in my resume in Japanese. I really tried to find refined and formal words in Japanese.
I didn't know the exact reason why I wasn't able to figure out what words to use in order to express my real motivation for each company.
Finally, I gave up thinking about that only by myself.
Actually it was too late to purse someone's support to succeed in my job-hunting.
But I really wanted to do as much things as I could in order not to feel regrettable.
I appreciated it that many friends helped me, taking a lot of time for me.
One of my friends gave me lots of valuable advise from Taiwan through Skype.
Another friend staying in Japan had my essay modified and told me what was the good expression in the resume just to pass the first step in which people in the company judged our resume online and gave the permission to go thorough next step to some of applicants.
Even though I knew the person being familiar with the specific companies at which I hoped to work and whom my friend introduced to me through the Internet, he helped me with a great wider mind.
Let me just say" Thank you so much".
If I say honestly, I can't say that my job-hunting was succeeded although I got one permission from IT company, but I could say with my great confidence that I was able to have the valuable experience like I could make full use of the knowledge and the skill I learned through the job-hunting in next job-hunting coming next summer .
If I challenge something difficult like it will change my way to my future, there are more people who try to help me with their kindness than I imagine.
Sometimes a person hesitates to ask something to the people he knows even though it is his significant thing.
Through my stay in USA, I feel that such hesitation might be based on Japanese cultural behavior, especially related with the idea"Omoiyari".
Even though I am here in N.Y, in many times, I often get unsure whether I should ask my friends for help,even seeming to be a small stuff because I consider too much what they feel when I pursue their help.
I would like to try not to think things too much and to keep myself confident, looking forward to my next moment filled with great hope.
In October, it was a terrible month for me as I had no time to sleep well actually because I had to prepare for my job hunting in Boston. I was so nervous even though I made a great effort to keep myself calm but I wasn't able to do that in fact because of the huge stress beyond my imagination.
It was a funny thing that I couldn't come up with the appropriate word to write down in my resume in Japanese. I really tried to find refined and formal words in Japanese.
I didn't know the exact reason why I wasn't able to figure out what words to use in order to express my real motivation for each company.
Finally, I gave up thinking about that only by myself.
Actually it was too late to purse someone's support to succeed in my job-hunting.
But I really wanted to do as much things as I could in order not to feel regrettable.
I appreciated it that many friends helped me, taking a lot of time for me.
One of my friends gave me lots of valuable advise from Taiwan through Skype.
Another friend staying in Japan had my essay modified and told me what was the good expression in the resume just to pass the first step in which people in the company judged our resume online and gave the permission to go thorough next step to some of applicants.
Even though I knew the person being familiar with the specific companies at which I hoped to work and whom my friend introduced to me through the Internet, he helped me with a great wider mind.
Let me just say" Thank you so much".
If I say honestly, I can't say that my job-hunting was succeeded although I got one permission from IT company, but I could say with my great confidence that I was able to have the valuable experience like I could make full use of the knowledge and the skill I learned through the job-hunting in next job-hunting coming next summer .
If I challenge something difficult like it will change my way to my future, there are more people who try to help me with their kindness than I imagine.
Sometimes a person hesitates to ask something to the people he knows even though it is his significant thing.
Through my stay in USA, I feel that such hesitation might be based on Japanese cultural behavior, especially related with the idea"Omoiyari".
Even though I am here in N.Y, in many times, I often get unsure whether I should ask my friends for help,even seeming to be a small stuff because I consider too much what they feel when I pursue their help.
I would like to try not to think things too much and to keep myself confident, looking forward to my next moment filled with great hope.
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